As a British Asian self-employed mother-of-two who is on her own spiritual path, you can trust that I have a lot to talk about. Here you will find posts about my life and personal experiences across the spectrum, all with a focus on the lessons I have learnt in the hope that they can help someone else out there too.
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The Art of Sabr: A Practice That Goes Beyond Patience
There’s a word we use in Urdu and Punjabi; a word that I heard over and over again while growing up. “Sabr,” my mother would impatiently say standing over the stove, as I tugged at her sleeve because my tummy was rumbling. “Sabr”, my grandmother would smile knowingly...
6 Life-Changing Lessons That My Spiritual Master Left Me
What does it mean to have a Spiritual Master? What does it mean to be a humble disciple? These are two questions that had never even crossed my mind until I met my husband, the man that was the means for me to meet the one man that would absolutely transform my...
6 Ways to Tame the Voices in Our Heads
“You can do this. This is the year. This is your time.” “Oh, but you say that every year. You don’t have it in you. You can never complete anything. You think you can do this? No way. Not a chance in hell.” “Oh come on, don’t listen to her. You know that’s not the...
7 Real Reflections on the First 3 Weeks Post-Partum
Last night, I ended up in the bathroom sobbing uncontrollably on the toilet for five minutes. The baby wouldn’t settle, I felt overwhelmingly exhausted and the pain from the haemorrhoids that had been torturing me for the past week was pretty much unbearable. Five...
The 7 Universal Laws of the Universe and How to Use Them to Create a Better Life
Life isn’t just happening. The way life is happening for us is because of us.That can be a hard pill to swallow for those who believe they always draw the short straw; that the world is against them and that life is just so damn hard.But it doesn’t have to be that...
I Write These 3 Things Everyday For A Happier Life
Mauritian sunshine streamed in through the kitchen windows, warming my body. Yet I still felt cold. I sat at the wooden table in the vast kitchen that was way too big for me, yet too small to house the blanket of darkness that enveloped me, and I looked down into my...
COVID 19: Humanity’s Awakening Shock?
The Awakening Shock My Sheikh (spiritual master and my spiritual guide) often speaks of the ‘awakening shock’. A moment in time or a series of separate yet interlinked occasions where a human being’s entire world, or how they knew it to be, is rocked so hard that...
Whispers on the Wind.
Gods whispers reached me on the wind. “Do you trust me?” I heard His voice loud and clear; it rang through my racing heart, coursed it’s way through my veins, I felt it run up and down the steps of my spine and somehow, I knew that it was ringing out from...
I’m a Wuss – and I’m Grateful for it
It’s not the first time in my life I’ve been called a wuss. There was the time when my circle of friends at the time, over ten years ago now, poked fun at the fact that I wasn’t one to raise my fists and get in a fight when it came to resolving conflicts. And...
Turning 31 in 24 Hours
In just over 24 hours, I’ll be turning 31. And I’m sitting here alone, with a Bollywood movie on in the background, Christmas tree lights twinkling away in the corner, full of a newly acquired cold, while my two children and husband sleep in their beds.While...
A Resignation, Synchronicities & Lessons Learnt
Some days I feel like I’m in a dream, watching myself going through the motions of each day, knowing that even though I am in this world, I am not of it; I’m just passing through and soon enough, I will be returning elsewhere. Other days, I feel ensnared by the...
But Do I Really Love Myself?
It’s been a really heavy few days. Which is the greatest paradox, because the last week has really been incredible for me career and work-wise. Yet, I don’t know whether it’s the crazy shit that’s going on with the planets at the moment, Mercury still...
To the Person Feeling Lost this Ramadan
It was the summer of 2010, and Ramadan had just arrived. After the shenanigans of my brother’s wedding and everything that comes with that just a couple of weeks prior to the holy month, we now had a new sister-in-law in the house and that first suhoor...
Back Pain, ChristChurch & Making Sense of it All
“Morning! How are you?” I asked, my voice groggy with sleep and pain. “Urm, I’m good, just so saddened and shocked to hear the news from New Zealand, this morning…” “I haven’t seen the news yet,” I cut in, trying to speak quickly through the pain eating...
What Do You Do When Your Best Friend Breaks Your Heart? | Part Two
Let's continue... If you haven't read Part One of this story yet, you can do so here. The Holiday In early May 2011, a few weeks before my Uncle passed on, my old best friend and I had booked our first holiday away together, flying early June. To say...
What Do You Do When Your Best Friend Breaks Your Heart? | Part One
They don’t write songs about this kind of stuff – I don’t think they really write much about this kind of stuff, to be honest. But it happens; and the pain that is left behind is so open, so exposing, so raw and so real that you’d think people...
What Even is Success?
Turning 30 & A Midi-Life Crisis So it’s official - I am now in the dirty thirties! I’m not gonna lie to you, I did kind of make the build up to the big day slightly more dramatic in my head than turning 30 actually was, but since turning 30 is the...
Gut Punches & Keeping Faith
I read the words in the business email I’d received earlier that morning, and although I knew it was coming, it still felt like someone had taken a giant, iron fist and punched me right in the gut. This has happened before and I’ve definitely been there...
In the In-Between
Yeah, so, I haven’t posted anything on the blog for a long, long while. If I were to use excuses, I’d say that it’s because of this trip home to England and not having the time or space to put new posts together regularly. And although that is partially...
A Whatsapp Convo with… A Muslim Woman in an Inter-Religious Marriage
As a child and even well into my adolescence, I was taught to believe that a Muslim woman marrying outside of her religion was the worst thing she could do. Deep inside, even from a young age, I questioned such ideologies however, and never...
Put It Into Words.
I was born to write. Ever since I was a little girl, with a big gap-toothed smile and crazy, curly hair, walking around like a miniature female version of my dad, words have always been my friends. Books became my whole world, losing myself in them as I escaped the...
Not Just the ‘Mehndi-Waali’
There is a problem in South Asian communities – even among South Asians born and brought up in western 21st century Britain. That problem is one of superiority and one that as a professional henna artist I have experienced first hand one too many times. Back in...
Thoughts on Ramadan from Humans Around the World
My own Feelings About Ramadan Through the Ages With each year that passes, for me, Ramadan seems to bring a new set of thoughts and feelings. (For those that don’t know much about Ramadan, check out my post ‘Why I Fast’.) I remember being so excited...
My Hypnobirthing Experience
I’ve been planning to write about my hypnobirthing experience for a while now (my daughter is now 15 months old after all!) but it just hasn’t happened – sorry about that! A couple of weeks ago, I read the Unmumsy Mum’s account of her hypnobirthing experience with...
“Be who you truly are” | Art & Words
It sounds so simple doesn't it? "Be who you truly are". But being who you truly are - although the answer to life's most persistently asked questions - is quite possibly one of the most difficult things to do. It means unlearning and unconditioning yourself from every...
Anita Moorjani’s Dying to be Me – My Thoughts
It was around March or April time last year (2017) when I was home alone with the baby who was sleeping soundly in her baby rocking chair, when while flicking through YouTube a suggested TED Talk popped up titled ‘Dying to be me!’. Immediately it caught my attention...
The Deep and Random Struggles of Motherhood
Coming from a background of working in music and always being around it or being immersed in it, just the other day - in a rare 30 minutes I got to myself with my earphones in with music on whilst beginning a new mandala drawing - I was reminded just how...
Return to Love.
So I'm standing here staring at this waterfall. The water gushes down, a cloud-like continuous foam. It is roaring; it's thirst has been quenched from the recent rain fall and it wants the world to know. It's sounds mixed with the wind rustling...
Instant Gratification or Long Term Success?
We live in a world where pretty much anything is available now - and so, we want it now. This goes from greasy fast food through to Instagram likes, from same-day delivery packages through to on-demand movies and music. We allow speed and convenience to become a major...
My Struggle of Being a Mother & a Creative
I’m not one to shy away from the fact that becoming a mother is definitely one of the hardest things I have ever had to do – and I think the challenges of motherhood are magnified even more so for me because of how creative I am as a person. I love to create – I...
A Whatsapp Convo with… Someone who has had an Out-of-Body Experience
I’ve read and come across information online about out of body experiences or OBEs (even from a really young age when I used to avidly buy SpineChiller magazine every week!) but never have I known or spoken to someone that has actually had one. I don’t believe in...
The Magic of Gris-Gris.
They call you wild – and when I first laid my eyes upon you, I was awestruck. Your energy was something else altogether. I imagined falling free off the edge of your cliff and into the thrashing water below; imagining how I would become entangled in your waves;...
Some Days I Just Miss Home.
Some days it’s just like this. Some days I just wake up missing home. Missing Manchester. Missing England. Wishing I could be there, have a home there. But it’s just not as easy as that. I made a choice and I’m here. But I miss my city. I miss my country....
The Cyclone is Coming.
I can hear the raindrops – sometimes calm, sometimes quiet, and then suddenly loud and strong as if to remind you to not forget that she’s on her way. The candles are ready, lined up on the sideboard as if they know an important job is awaiting them – just like the...
10 Tips for Having a Happy & Productive Year
I’m not really into that whole “new year, new me” stuff that everyone likes to post about as the new year approaches, as I don’t think you need a specific time or date to make a change in your life. But I do love the positivity and hope that everyone cultivates around...
2017
It seems like it was just yesterday that we were welcoming in the brand new year of 2017, and look! Here we are already at the beginning of 2018 and it’s like ‘woah’, where is time actually going? To be honest, I didn’t enter 2017 in the best place within myself. I...
29 Things I’ve Learnt in 29 Years
It’s almost half past midnight and I’ve just entered my 29th birthday and begun my 30th year of life in human form. Oh my GOD – I’m in the final year of my twenties… how did that even happen?!? Anyway, I’ve been thinking deeply – particularly over the last few nights...
A 4th and a 1st Birthday
I feel like I literally blinked and in that time, suddenly my birthday month turned into the birthday month of my babies; both of who turned out to be unexpected and surprising little bundles of not just joy, but hard work, perseverance and a test of my patience...
My Brand New Look Blog & Finally Learning to Believe in Myself
So, here we are! My first post on my brand new look blog which, let’s be real, has been a bloody long time coming. As far back as I can remember, I have always been an avid writer – particularly writing to express my emotions. Whenever I felt sad or confused or...
#MeToo
We know how powerful hashtags can be in this day and age. Hashtags can inspire and they can create movements. Hashtags can begin conversations and instigate change. And some hashtags can even break us, make us, unite us and then do all of the above and more. Today I...
