Whispers on the Wind.
Gods whispers reached me on the wind.
“Do you trust me?”
I heard His voice loud and clear; it rang through my racing heart, coursed it’s way through my veins, I felt it run up and down the steps of my spine and somehow, I knew that it was ringing out from somewhere deep within me, and from nowhere else.
“Do you trust me?” He whispered again.
Tears streamed down my face as if life or death depended on them reaching the ground, and I felt my ego screaming out as if it were being burned alive, clawing and clinging so it could stay safely within the home it had made for itself – the home it had made within me.
Again, I heard the faintest, feather-like whisper, beckoning me forth.
“Do you trust me?” He said, “Come. This is the way.”
I wiped the tears that had condensed on my pale skin, and I lifted my quivering hand. Reaching out and at the same time feeling my soul release all of the things I had ever known to be my truth.
“I trust you,” I whispered in reply, as shivers ran through my existence. “Allah, I trust you.”
I felt a hand take hold of mine; I was embraced in a way I had never been embraced before; and as I cut free of the chains that had bound me since the moment I took my first breath in this world, I felt more free in that one moment in time, than I had ever felt in my entire life.
I knew the way ahead was going to be steep, demanding and toilsome, yet the peace I felt was indescribable.
Because finally, finally I knew the one thing that I guess I had subconsciously known my whole life: that God was carrying me. He had always been carrying me in the directions I needed to go to truly discover Him. And to discover myself. And I finally realised that no way had ever been wrong, as He had always been guiding me… right.
So when He whispered the words once again, as soft as a mother soothing her newborn baby, “Come. This is the way”, I got to my feet and took my first step and breath in the new life just gifted to me.
“Thank you,” I smiled gently, with my head raised to the sky. And it was then that I finally began the long journey Home – trusting in His love, His mercy and His guidance every single step of the way.
Sabah Ismail 05/03/2020